I'm feeling extremely discouraged right now! I had a horrible run this morning! Ended up walking the majority of it. 71% humidity is just too intense!
I'm feeling like I should've chosen the novice half program to follow instead if the beginner... Uh, I don't know!
I had expected myself to be farther along in my weight loss by now! I just want to be skinny already! Or at least just plain overweight instead of obese! It makes me so mad! If I would've started the first time I was 197lbs I'd be done already!
I just wonder of I'll ever be comfortable in my body.... How much am I going to have to lose before I don't feel enormous?
My SIL always says she feels fat and she weighs 162lbs! Which I don't judge her by. I know all girls feel too big sometimes regardless if their size, but I started 98lbs heavier than that!
I just want to feel comfortable and be able to run without feeling like I'm dying! I want to wear something cute and FEEL cute!
Sorry for being a Debbie Downer, but that stupid run this morning really put a bad vibe on my day...
In Kansas our state motto is Ad Astra Per Aspera, it means To The Stars Through Difficulties. I think it describes my journey quite well. carrierunstothestars.blogspot.com
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Monday, June 25, 2012
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Blah!
I've had an upset stomach all last night and all day today. I really hope this is just a 24 hour thing, because I have a 5k race tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed.
When Paul came home from work today, he said "I was thinking about it today, and I'm not going to be able to run 3 miles after working all day!" He's just trying to make excuses for when I do better than him ;)
I watched The Biggest Loser Finale tonight and it helped me put my weight loss in perspective. Since October, I have lost 27.33% of my body weight. That is not far off from what the contestants have done in about a month more while being on the Biggest Loser Ranch! I feel like they all look so much farther along than me though...
I just feel discouraged sometimes. I don't know why, because I'm losing weight, but I've lost 55lbs and I still feel enormous! I'm just having a hard time seeing the big picture right now.
I'm also having a hard time with my running journey as well. I still feel so slow! I feel like I'm nowhere near prepared to run a 10k in 5 weeks! I just try to believe that I'll get there, but it's hard.
When Paul came home from work today, he said "I was thinking about it today, and I'm not going to be able to run 3 miles after working all day!" He's just trying to make excuses for when I do better than him ;)
I watched The Biggest Loser Finale tonight and it helped me put my weight loss in perspective. Since October, I have lost 27.33% of my body weight. That is not far off from what the contestants have done in about a month more while being on the Biggest Loser Ranch! I feel like they all look so much farther along than me though...
I just feel discouraged sometimes. I don't know why, because I'm losing weight, but I've lost 55lbs and I still feel enormous! I'm just having a hard time seeing the big picture right now.
I'm also having a hard time with my running journey as well. I still feel so slow! I feel like I'm nowhere near prepared to run a 10k in 5 weeks! I just try to believe that I'll get there, but it's hard.
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