Before....

November 7, 2011 243#

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 December 21, 2011 233#

I had my WW meeting today and I lost 5.2# this week! I was so very excited! I got my first 5# sticker and I'm so proud! I've also exercised 5 days in a row!

I'm going to register to do the Thanksgiving 5k in my town. I won't be running, of course, but it's on my way to my goals. I want to be able to RUN the River Run which is a 5k in June. My friends, Kim and Bekki, are going to walk the 5k with me. I'm so excited!

Today at work, there was left over birthday cake from a birthday yesterday when I was off. I LOVE cake! It's my favorite food ever. I lasted until about 3pm, then I looked to see if there was any left. There was one piece and I decided to eat it. I knew I wouldn't be bingeing on it because it was the last piece. I ate it and it was good, but I felt like shit afterwards. Not about eating it, but physically, I felt like shit. I had this huge sugar rush and it did not feel good.

In other news, I can't believe my daughter still has Halloween candy left! I haven't had any in over a week! I feel like I'm making great strides!

Here's to another awesome week!

Exercise

I decided on some fitness goals as well as weight loss goals.

#1: Run 1/4 mile  achieved 1/2/12
#2: Run 1/2 mile
#3: Run 1 mile
#4: Run a 5K

I have just started exercising, so these goals are are ways off, but I feel like they are eventually reachable.

We got the Wii Fit on Saturday and I played on it for an hour. I played on it another hour on Sunday as well as taking Elliott to the zoo and walking the zoo for 2 hours. This morning I got up and did 30 minutes of Wii before work, shopped for workout clothes on my lunch break instead of sitting, then did 10 minutes of step on the Wii after work. I want to try to start running/walking 3 days a week. I'm going to do Sunday, Tuesday, and Friday.

I still feel highly motivated. However, I'm still struggling not to binge eat. The evenings are the hardest for me.

I had my husband take an "official" before photo of me tonight. But these photos were my wake up calls. They were taken October 2nd, 2011. I weigh around 260# in these.








I can't wait to weigh in on Wednesday!

Goals

SW: 260# (10/1)
WW SW: 249.2# (10/26) (-10.8)

2011
11/2: 246.4 (-2.8) (-13.6)
11/9: 241.2 (-5.2) (-18.8)
11/16: 241.2 (-0) (-18.8)
11/23: 237.8 (-3.4) (-22.2)
11/30: 236.4 (-1.4) (-23.6)
12/7: 234.8 (-1.6) (-25.2)
12/14: 234.2 (-0.6) (-25.8)
12/21: 233.0 (-1.2) (-27)
12/28: 234.0 (+1) (-26) 

2012
1/4: 230.6 (-3.4) (-29.4)
1/11: 228.4 (-2.2) (-31.6)
1/18: 226.2 (-2.2) (-33.8)
1/25: 224.8 (-1.4) (-35.2)
2/1: 222.8 (-2.0) (-37.2)
2/8: 220.2 (-2.6) (-39.8) 
2/15: 218.8 (-1.4) (-41.2) 
2/22: 217.4 (-1.4) (-42.6) 
2/29:  216.0 (-1.4) (-44)
3/7: 213.8 (-2.2)  (-46.2)
3/16: 212.4 (-1.4) (-47.6) 
3/25: 212.8 (+0.4) (-47.2) 
4/1: 210.8 (-2.0)  (-49.2)
4/9: 215.6 (+5.8) (-43.4)
4/16: 209.0 (-6.6) (-51) 
4/23: 205.6 (-3.4) (-54.4) 
4/30: 204.2 (-1.4) (-55.8) 
5/7: 206.6 (+2.4) (-53.4) 
5/14: 202.2 (-4.4) (-57.8) 
5/21: 204.2 (+2.0) (-55.8) 
5/:28: 199.8 (-4.4) (-60.2) 
6/17: 197.4 (-2.4) (-62.6)
6/28: 194.6 (-2.8) (-65.4)
12/12: 188.8 (-5.8) (-71.2)

2013 
1/21: 187.4 (-1.4) (-72.6)
1/28: 184.2 (-3.2) (-75.8)
2/4: 181.4 (-2.8) (-78.6)
2/25: 180.0 (-1.4) (-80)


#1: 239# (9 months pregnant) (-21#) (goal 11/17/11) achieved 11/23/11
#2: 237# (WW 5%) (-23#) (goal 12/17/11) achieved 11/30/11
#3: 230# (Pre pregnancy Wt)(-30#) (goal 1/17/12)achieved 1/11/12
#4: 225# (WW 10%) (-35#) (goal 2/17/12) achieved 1/25/12
#5: 219# (Highest wt ever, post wedding) (-41#) (goal 3/17/12) achieved 2/15/12
#6: 210# (Highest wt ever, pre wedding/50# lost) (-50#) (goal 4/17/12) achieved 4/16/12

#7: 199# (Under 200#) (-61#) (goal 5/17/12) achieved 5/28/12
#8: 195# (Half way to goal!) (-65#) (goal 6/17/12) achieved 6/28/12
#9: 190# (Wedding wt) (-70#) (goal 7/17/12) achieved summer/fall of 2012
#10: 180# (Post pregnancy wt loss) (-80#) (goal 1/9/13)  achieved 2/25/13
#11: 170# (Less than husband wt) (-90#) (3/17/13)
#12: 160# (1st Goal Wt) (-100#) (5/5/13)
#13: 150# (2nd Goal Wt) (-110#) (7/17/13)
#14: 140# (3rd Goal Wt) (-120#) (9/17/13)
#15: 130# (Half My Size!) (-130#) (11/17/13)

WW Weigh-In Week 1

I had my Weight Watchers weigh-in on Wednesday 11/2 and I weighed in at 246.4 which is a loss of 2.8#! I was surprised it was that much because I (over)indulged in some of my daughters Halloween candy. However, this week I have stayed motivated and am making strides in eating and exercise. I haven't had any candy since Wednesday, but I have had some cookies...

I have been thinking about getting a Wii Fit and Balance Board for our Wii for some time. I looked at them online yesterday morning and it was about $100. Not in my budget right now. So, I looked on craigslist and found one for $30. And I bought it. I did 60 minutes on it last night and first thing this morning. I burned around 300 calories at each work out. It is pretty fun to do. We will see if it helps out my weigh in for this week. My favorite is the kung fu!

Well, here's to a great week!

Let me tell you how I got here.

I've struggled with my weight for about as long as I can remember. Even when I wasn't REALLY fat, I always felt fat. I can remember being in the 4th grade and telling my best friend that I was embarrassed because I had to start wearing bra because my boobs were getting bigger and she said "Yeah, that's because you're chunky!" It turned a horrifying moment, even more horrifying. (BTW, she has always been stick skinny and still doesn't have boobs to this day!) That was the day that I became The Chubby Girl, to myself. I always thought of my friends as "The Pretty Ones" because they were skinny, and I was "The Chubby Girl". No boys ever liked me, or so I thought. Why would they like me when they compare me to my friends.

In the 6th grade there was this boy in my gym class that always called me "Fattie". How rude? I would always have to make myself not cry and act like it didn't bother me, but I'm pretty sure it helped shape the way I feel about my body, even today.

The summer before 7th grade I made a diet and work out plan that I gathered out of a teen magazine. I would rollerblade on our back patio for hours at a time and track everything I ate. I would also walk down our street and alternate between walking a house length and running a house length. I don't know if I lost any weight or not. Even if I did, I still felt like I was huge.

I remember shopping for clothes for 8th grade. It was the first time my mom ever let me pick out my own stuff. We went to The Buckle and I remember trying on jeans. I wore a size 7 or 9 depending on the brand. I was so embarrassed about those numbers because my best friend was in a 1 or 3. I So wish I could go back there and talk to myself. I'd tell myself that not everyone is a size 3 and it's okay if you aren't.

I was pretty much the same size from 8th grade all though out high school. I remember in 9th grade getting weighed at the doctor and I was 156 pounds. The doctor said I should probably lose some weight.

After high school I remember being 20 and weighing 173 pounds. I though this was out of control. My roommate and I began a diet and starting doing Tae Boe every day. I lost 8 pounds before giving up.

A year later I moved to the town my boyfriend lived in. I was 185 pounds. I joined Weight Watchers and Curves with my roommate. I didn't last long.

I moved in with my boyfriend at 21 and I was now 195 pounds. I didn't know how to cook, he didn't know how to cook, so we ate fast food every night.

At 23 we got engaged, I was 210 pounds. The biggest I'd ever been. The year of our engagement, I lost 20 pounds and got married at 190 pounds and 24 years old.

In the 6 months following our wedding I got up to 219. Now the biggest I'd ever been, and I didn't stop there.

The summer of 2009, I was 25. Paul and I decided we were going to try to get pregnant. In my head, I thought I was way too heavy to get pregnant, so I thought we would try for 3 months, then I would have to lose some weight. I wanted a baby so bad, so I though I would actually lose weight this time. Much to my surprise, we got pregnant the first month we tried. I was extremely happy, but now I was going to GAIN even more weight. At my first OB visit they weighed me and I was 230 pounds. Wow. Not to mention the nurse said the number out loud and now my husband knew how much I weighed. I almost cried at that. Of course he always knew I was big, I mean, we're at an OB appointment, he's obviously seen me naked, but he never knew the number and now he did.

When the doctor came in to see us she addressed my weight. She told me that I needed to gain only 10-15 pounds through out my pregnancy. How in the hell was I going to do that. I'd known pregnant people and the least I'd ever heard of gaining was 35 pounds with the most being 95 pounds. I felt like I was doomed. I told myself that I would aim to only gain 25.

But then it seemed like magic started to happen. Instead of gaining weight, I started losing weight! I got down to 219 before I started gaining again. At every appointment my doctor would tell that I was doing such a good job with my weight and that she was so proud of me! But I wasn't even trying. The day I gave birth to my beautiful daughter, I was 239. So I'd gained 7 pounds from my pre pregnancy weight. I was thrilled!

After having Elliott, I lost 18 pounds the first week, taking me to 223. The weight was just falling off. By the time Elliott was 4 months old, I weighed 189 pounds. I'd lost 50 pounds without even trying! Then I stopped breastfeeding. Then the weight came back on.

Today, my daughter is 19 months old. Today I am 27 years old and weigh 249 pounds. In the last month, I've weighed 260 pounds.

I've started Weight Watchers again (probably for the 5th time). I am finally ready to lose weight! I am going to chronicle my journey, keep myself accountable, and seek out support. Thanks for reading!